2 + 1 = Exhaustion...Also known as Fake it 'til you Make it.
So today is Friday. Most people would be ecstatic. Some time off, laze around, do some errands, whatever. Not me. No, what does Laura do with her weekends? She works. (Well, I guess I took off for southern AB to see my family last weekend, but hell, 4 hours of driving each way is work.) Don't get me wrong, I need my weekend job, so I can pay off bills and go back to school, but still. I'm tired. All I want to do is go see X-men 3 tonight, and curl up in bed early, and sleep until 2 p.m. tomorrow.
So I'm tired already with 2 jobs, and what did I do last night? I got myself another one. Yes, that's right, Yours Truly now has a third job. I will be the newest employee at a local video rental store. Do I really want to work there? No. Will I still do my best and make everyone think I do? Yes. I'm good at faking like that. Fake it 'til you make it.
I think that will be my new motto. Fake being awake until you are. Fake being pleasant to everyone, until the grouchiness subsides. Fake loving working every single minute of my day, until it is at least a numb spot instead of wishing I was home at sleep.
So now, as of Monday, I will be working 8:30-5:00 at my regular job, 5:05ish-11:00 at my second job, and still be up at 6:30 for the gym every morning. Not to mention the 24 hour care weekends once or twice a month. Am I going to want to die? Hell yes. Am I going to do it anyway? Hell yes.
Hopefully I will be too busy to eat. Maybe I will lose some weight. As long as I keep going to the gym I will be fine. No quitting for me. Fake loving getting up at an un-godly hour every day. (Yes 6:30 is un-godly. We are talking about a girl who would gladly sleep until 11 everyday if she could get away with it.)
*Sigh* I'm doing it all to myself. But I will fake loving it...I will fake it 'til I make it.
So I'm tired already with 2 jobs, and what did I do last night? I got myself another one. Yes, that's right, Yours Truly now has a third job. I will be the newest employee at a local video rental store. Do I really want to work there? No. Will I still do my best and make everyone think I do? Yes. I'm good at faking like that. Fake it 'til you make it.
I think that will be my new motto. Fake being awake until you are. Fake being pleasant to everyone, until the grouchiness subsides. Fake loving working every single minute of my day, until it is at least a numb spot instead of wishing I was home at sleep.
So now, as of Monday, I will be working 8:30-5:00 at my regular job, 5:05ish-11:00 at my second job, and still be up at 6:30 for the gym every morning. Not to mention the 24 hour care weekends once or twice a month. Am I going to want to die? Hell yes. Am I going to do it anyway? Hell yes.
Hopefully I will be too busy to eat. Maybe I will lose some weight. As long as I keep going to the gym I will be fine. No quitting for me. Fake loving getting up at an un-godly hour every day. (Yes 6:30 is un-godly. We are talking about a girl who would gladly sleep until 11 everyday if she could get away with it.)
*Sigh* I'm doing it all to myself. But I will fake loving it...I will fake it 'til I make it.
posted by Laura @ 11:05 AM
7 Comments:
At May 27, 2006 4:28 AM,
Leila said…
How awful! And sad about having to fake it. But I wish you all the luck in the world!
At May 27, 2006 1:05 PM,
Shantelle said…
Dont make yourself sick Laura. The money is great but your health and sanity are more important just remember.
At May 28, 2006 8:05 PM,
life's a dream said…
Laura, just be careful you don't burn out. Take care of you first. The money will fall into place.
At May 29, 2006 9:33 AM,
Laura said…
Thanks guys. That's the wonderful part about it being a crap job. If I don't like it, or if it gets to be too much, I can just quit. Mwahahahaha.
Fake it 'til I make it - it's not a bad thing Leila. It means that I keep a positive attitude until I really feel positive.
At May 29, 2006 3:06 PM,
Leila said…
I kinda figured from the rest of your post Laura...but still it made me feel sad somehow! I dunno, maybe i'm just being weird....
At May 30, 2006 7:10 AM,
S* said…
I echo the "take care of yourself" sentiment, but as a 20-something myself who's had to make my own way as long as I can remember, I can say that sometimes it's worth it to have 2-3 jobs. I've done it myself (and it's been the subject of many jokes). I totally burned out from working 7 days a week, but boy did the money help! So, even if it's just a temporary thing to help you get ahead a little, I think it's worth. Being broke can be just as bad for you as being burnt out.
At May 30, 2006 10:03 AM,
Anthony said…
You'll be amazed how 'faking it' can influence others around you.
Trying looking at it this way: you work hard to be able to go back to school (this is obviously something that will make you happy, no?)
Everything is temporary.
;)
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